Shadow Shot Sunday # 23- the unexplained

This weeks shadow shot is very ambigious, and for today I am going to leave it unexplained.... There seems to be a lot in my life at the moment that is unexplained or beyond my understanding so I think it's quite apt....

I mentioned last week taking Felix away with me to the Sunshine Coast, and the stress of previous weeks, well the reasons continue but the good news is my coping skills are increasing bit by bit and thats helping alot..

Basically Felix is being reviewed for additional needs at the moment at his school, there is a school assigned to him and I have been talking with her and his teacher about what is going on for my boy.

They will observe him over the next few weeks and advise me of the outcome, this will basically be only the beginning while we all work out whether Felix has physical, intellectual or behavioural problems(or a combination of all). I took him to the GP today to get a referal for a new Peadiatrician (we haven't seen one regularly since moving from the Gold Coast) despite me going privately, we still have to wait 1 month for the Ear Nose and Throat specialist and 3 months for a private Peadrician appointment.

There is so much here that is a good thing, but for me I took alot of these investigations on board, there was so much guilt attached to not being there enough for him, losing touch with what was happening for him, and of course needing to work full time which meant he is exhausted everyday.

I have needed to let go alot of this and just focus on what can be done from now on, I realised I was beating myself up and wasting vital energy I could be using to deal with what I need to.

Anyhow I'm a bit late for SSS but I have great hopes for this week being a giant step forward.. Hope where ever you are in the world you are stepping forward too!