Happy Birthday Captain Rex (aka Felix)

My boy turned 5 years old last Friday and his party was held on Sunday at our local park.

It was 15 kids (his friends and their siblings) a Star Wars (clone wars theme) a white chocolate mud (captain rex) cake, food, some games and sports and party bags.

As I dont get to see him interact with his school friends it was wonderful, I really felt like a headless chook most of the day (give me a small cluster anyday) but I really do feel it was worthwhile and everyone seemed to have fun. It does really amazing me how other working parents manage this ? I think my household organisation skills leave alot to be desired...

I think every year I swear not to do the party and each year he's had one of some kind (except his first year I think we just did close family and friends) but seriously when its all over and you have the smiles and photos to look at, then you must dull the memory of the preparation and the energy expense...

I get pretty tired of writing how full on life is, but recently it really just has seemed to reach epic proportions, we have been looking to buy a house, work is negotiating a new contract with me and to be honest the dangle of more money is extremely attractive, but the stress gets higher and leaves you wondering some days..why on earth am I doing this? I think my main problem is I dive into things and take on more and more on myself till I reach the point of saturation and then try to come up gasping for air..

Anyhow I've said it before I am not a good life balancer..I do feel that I try though, if I could describe my life at the moment , it would be..I am *trying hard* at everything in life..trying to be a good parent, trying to be a good partner, trying to be good at my job, trying to be good at managing a household and trying to be a good friend..I think several of these are managable, others have their days and some like managing the house I down right suck at...things like more money might buy me a housecleaner, then thats balance huh? lol...one balances the other.